Your heart is safe

Welcoming this brand new decade by stepping out of my comfort zone this morning and starting my day much earlier than what I have been use to....

I got myself up and out of bed at 6 AM this morning and for anyone that knows me this is not the norm for a girl that loves her warm cozy blankets in the morning, especially during these colder winter months.

My hopes are that this post will reach someone that needs inspiration this month, someone like me that seems to have caught a little case of the winter blues.

This post is also a reflection of the struggle I have faced since I created this website and made the decision to finally start this blog and launch my business...

Ever put a ton of time, love and energy into a project and then find yourself right at the finish line crippled by fear? That is exactly what happen to me when my website was complete and ready to make public...

For almost a full month, I was all in and so inspired! I couldn't stay away from the screen! Everyday I woke up excited to get on my computer and keep putting all of my creative energy and inspiration to work with a goal to bring my business website to life and start this blog..But then once I got to the moment I had been the most excited for...I tucked myself into a shell like a little turtle that didn't have the courage to bring it home and swim to shore.

So often when we make the decision to go for something that really sets our soul on fire we get stunned.

I call these moments heart tests. The moment when your heart wants one thing but your thinking mind is feeding you fear driven thoughts and testing your heart vibes.

On a much smaller scale this can be very much the same as my heart telling me I want to get up earlier in the morning to journalize, spend time on my mat, mediate and work on my business but my mind chatter getting in the way and taking advantage of me as soon as my alarm rings, telling me to stay in bed.

Yet here I am!

My heart finally woke up before my brain this morning and here I am being vulnerable and sharing with a desire to heal. Here I am following my bliss!

As I take in a nice long deep breathe I know that I am meant to be here, it took me a while but I am here and this is new, and so exciting! To anyone reading, you are witnessing a raw break through moment, and I thank you for sharing this very special moment with me.

Sometimes it takes us a while to wake up, to go for the things that we know our heart truly desires, but if we allow it to lead the way, our heart is always trustable, always safe!

Our mind is powerful too! And in many ways can be one of our best tools to manifesting the life we deserve and are worthy of, but 90 % of the time, if we let it, our thinking minds will actually stop us from leaping into our authentic selves, influencing us to gear away from the path that will lead us to our greatest self and most fulfilling future. We often settle with what the (ego) mind is feeding us. And when we do this, it can be very easy to get stuck in the same negative brain patters, always making the same choices that are keeping us away from what we actually want. By always thinking the same doubtful thoughts, it makes it impossible to break through and discover all the beauty that awaits for our hearts to embrace.

Sometimes the only way to break these patterns and bring ourselves into a new energy frequency is by taking action against the thinking mind despite the fear, despite the negative chatter that is giving us all the reasons why we can't or shouldn't follow our heart. This will take determination, and it's not suppose to be easy. Most times our negative thought patterns and ego won't quiet with ease and when our heart takes over it's almost guaranteed that the ego will fight back even stronger. And that's OK! The secret to overcoming this is knowing that the fear is not real. By being aware that unhealthy thinking patterns can be broken and by knowing that they will only stop us from following our gorgeous bliss if we give them power by believing that they are our reality. Negative thoughts are never our reality, they are always formed in the mind as an assumption of what might be. And what might be is not real. It's fiction.

These thoughts are an illusion and have been programmed into our minds at a young age when we may have been faced with an unpleasant experience that left us feeling emotions of fear and self doubt. The ego latches on to those experiences and takes pride in trying to repeat the same unhealthy patterns of reaction. This in return launches our fight or flight response in our sympathetic nervous system and causes all the feelings that hold us back (heart rate increase, nervousness, unease, shallow breathing, negative self talk, doubt, fear...) A great way to reverse this effect and activate our parasympathetic nervous system is by taking deep breathes and changing the dialogue in the mind with positive affirmations and empowering self talk.

In other more feisty words...sometimes you just need to say "Fuck it, I can do this!" and take the leap regardless of the bull shit spiraling through your mind! The best medicine for doubt is taking action and leaping into change! We can reboot and start fresh teaching our thinking mind to align with our heart and true desires.

So the next time you really want to do something because you can feel it in your gut that it will be the best decision for you,, bringing you feelings of joy and accomplishment...don't let your fear stop you.

And trust me, it won't always be your own self doubts getting in the way...

Sometimes you'll reach out to friends or family seeking guidance and support and their advice or opinions may also be driven by fear. They will want to support you but sometimes other people's own demons will try to trigger that negative thought pattern to reactivate. Just remember that we are all trying to break this spell. It's a beautiful gift to be aware of this and create space for compassion not only for ourselves but also for the others around us who are also on a journey of self love and mindfulness.

We are always already in tune with the answers, our intuition has already painted the picture into our hearts of how anything is possible if we believe. We've already had a glimpse of how breathtakingly amazing and powerful our lives could be if we went for the things that scare us and faced our fears. It's all there, everything we need already is within our world to cultivate our greatness!

It's time we find safety in our hearts desires and take a chance!

And if we fail, we will grow from it, we will rise and stand tall; even closer to where we are truly meant to be.

Don't be afraid of your heart, it has a plan for you.

You are safe.

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